....irrespective of whether i deserve this or not this shouldn't be happening. Its cold. Its in the middle of the night. I am tired. I'd rather lie in bed taking in the last few moments of consciousness feeling the rest of my body dissolve in to the matress. But no, i can't and for whatever unforgiveable reason, i doubt i'll be able to live with myself long enough to ever enjoy pleasent sleep again (except of course on tuesday, tuesdays are always the exception).
I'm not the person i once was. I don't have the same ridiculous dreams of doing something worthwhile or actually making a difference. I'm too stupid to carry that kind of responsibility and not stupid enough to carry on relentless. I am now a gear. A useless piece of machinery. Used when needed, discarded when not. I bear no importance to the actual process since i'm easily replaced. I don't get paid. I am emotionless.
Could i push rewind? I missed the best part could we please go back to start.
4 comments:
And perhaps the biggest irony is the fact that blogger recorded this entry at 11:42am!
What is this nonsense.... You think too much... thats the only problem... if you have sleeping problems just put the quarter and sleep off
I want refreshing spine liquefying sleep...not post-vomit, mind killing knock out! :D
i love you
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